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culumacilinte) wrote2008-11-23 02:54 am
culumacilinte) wrote2008-11-23 02:54 am
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there are some have been thought brave
I want to leave.
Is that cowardly? I don't know, maybe. To leave without finishing things up more. I've tried, though, is the thing; I went and talked to teachers and made an effort there, and for a while it succeeded, and I felt on top of things and whatever, but it's just got worse now.
Maybe it's cowardly, but I do believe it's the best thing for me right now. For my personal health- mental and physical and emotional and all of it. Staying here is doing me no good. I need a fresh page. To go home, I think, would be good for me. Someplace where I know I have good friends, where I can get a job and be productive day by day. Turn over that proverbial new leaf and find somewhere better for me to start again.
Fuck it.
Is that cowardly? I don't know, maybe. To leave without finishing things up more. I've tried, though, is the thing; I went and talked to teachers and made an effort there, and for a while it succeeded, and I felt on top of things and whatever, but it's just got worse now.
Maybe it's cowardly, but I do believe it's the best thing for me right now. For my personal health- mental and physical and emotional and all of it. Staying here is doing me no good. I need a fresh page. To go home, I think, would be good for me. Someplace where I know I have good friends, where I can get a job and be productive day by day. Turn over that proverbial new leaf and find somewhere better for me to start again.
Fuck it.